Saturday, December 25, 2004
Merry Christmas everyone...
Wasn't able to write anything last week cos busy.
Days in OCS like very long,I'm starting to lose confidence in myself.
I wasn't able to pass their SOC as their passing timing is 9min.
Frankly speaking,I still wonder y I'm in OCS.
When I'm in SISPEC,some of my platoon mates feel tat I don deserve to go OCS.
They feel tat my fitness is not there yet.
Frankly speaking,even my PC doubted my abilities.
All I kno is my sgt believe I'm capable to go there cos of my outfield performance.
He rated me very high for my qualities to be leader,tats wat my PC says.
In 1 of the SOC training in OCS,I wasn't able to clear the low wall cos my leg was strain the days b4. 2nd day of OCS,we were make to run the SOC 4 times without break cos we r SISPEC crossover. Unlike those OCT who was there for so long,they only cross twice.
I was make fun of by Cavin AGAIN for not able to cross the low wall. Jus like hw he make fun of me in POLY. I kno I'm always doing things beyond my abilities,but tats hw I train myself. I wan to overcome my abilities. But nw I'm really starting to doubt if I shld carry on with this kind of thinking.
A journey begins not with the first step
but with the desire to go whereyou have never gone.
posted at [11:06 AM]
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
There's a place in my heart that is dying,Turning bit by bit to jagged stone.
What was once alive beating, joyous,Is becoming tired, bitter, and mostly alone.
It's the place where you hold your Forevers,Wrapped snugly in the fabric of love.
Then life takes its toll on these heartstrings,Severing with knives, some with kid gloves.
It begins slowly, just a twinge here or there.Who'd notice if one string was cut or raveled?
A few frayed fibers, seems not much to pay,For as many paths as we have traveled.
But weaken the whole by even one thread,Broken promises, bruised feelings filter thru',
Tiny pieces of love are touched and become dead.
The stone starts to grow, no matter what you do.
Too many tears in the cloth, tho' everyone's trying,Holes that can't be patched or merely mended.
There's a place in my heart that is dying.Leaving the Forevers untended.
posted at [1:18 PM]
Yeah,graduate from BSLC lo. Finally 10 weeks training over. Nw I'm a CPL. Finished the 32km road march on Fri morning. So tiring,has abrasion at my groin area + blisters at my leg after the march. Wasn't able to go Junn 16 yr old B'day chatlet bcos of it. Cos I can't walk.We are only allowed to book out at 5.30p.m and they don allow us to sleep during admin time. So unfair lo,after march shld let us sleep like when we're in BMTC ma. We r humans too lo.
Got my posting on Fri too,Haiz.... After so long,I'll still be a trainee. This time,I posted to OCS le. Lucky I not going to Alpha Company. There's a possibility tat I going Cavin's company. Haha... Got too many things to do so can't write much. Bye everyone..
posted at [1:02 PM]
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