Saturday, December 25, 2004
Merry Christmas everyone...
Wasn't able to write anything last week cos busy.
Days in OCS like very long,I'm starting to lose confidence in myself.
I wasn't able to pass their SOC as their passing timing is 9min.
Frankly speaking,I still wonder y I'm in OCS.
When I'm in SISPEC,some of my platoon mates feel tat I don deserve to go OCS.
They feel tat my fitness is not there yet.
Frankly speaking,even my PC doubted my abilities.
All I kno is my sgt believe I'm capable to go there cos of my outfield performance.
He rated me very high for my qualities to be leader,tats wat my PC says.
In 1 of the SOC training in OCS,I wasn't able to clear the low wall cos my leg was strain the days b4. 2nd day of OCS,we were make to run the SOC 4 times without break cos we r SISPEC crossover. Unlike those OCT who was there for so long,they only cross twice.
I was make fun of by Cavin AGAIN for not able to cross the low wall. Jus like hw he make fun of me in POLY. I kno I'm always doing things beyond my abilities,but tats hw I train myself. I wan to overcome my abilities. But nw I'm really starting to doubt if I shld carry on with this kind of thinking.
A journey begins not with the first step
but with the desire to go whereyou have never gone.
posted at [11:06 AM]
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